Death.
It had been brought up earlier tonight by quietblackbird and it gave me a lot to think about. It used to scare me, and I used to think about how I could die at any moment. I could go to bed and not wake up. I could crash my car. I could be murdered.
I used to fear for my friends’ lives… so many of them have died, that I’ve lost count. I used to never want to leave my friends alone… and at a drop of a hat, I’d be spending time with them when they asked. (I’d still drop everything for my friends) A part of me was afraid that I’d bury them all.
I began to drown myself in pictures of them, thousands upon thousands every month. Pictures of us together. Pictures of them that I took. Pictures upon pictures on my wall. I wanted to cherish every moment, I wanted to remember every moment, I wanted to remember every story so I could tell my children one day.
Death is inevitable.
Slowly, as time goes on, I have come to realize… I do not fear death. I will gladly lay down my life in order to save those I care about, or those in need. I still fear that I will lose my friends, but it’s no longer a paranoia. I have come to live by this simple philosophy:
“Leave nothing unsaid; leave nothing undone.”
With this, I have been brutally honest, even during the toughest times. With this, I have been unconditional and affectionate. I choose to live my life like it’s my last day. I choose to live my life like it’s their last day. All grudges have disappeared. I find arguing with one another caddy and pointless.
I cherish every laugh, I remember every tear as another friend opens up to me about something tragic, and I am there for them. Always. I refuse to let them leave this world without them knowing of everything I have to give. I refuse to let them live in this world questioning if I truly care.
I show them just how much they mean to me.
I live this life with no regrets. I look death in his blackened sockets, and I laugh. With a drink raised in one hand, I will say, “I’ve had a good run, mate. You cannot make any one of us wish that something could be different.”
Normally I just reblog gamer and nerdy stuff but this is really touching and I couldn’t not post it
